(Source: lovelaine, via kylejanuszkiewicz)
8 more weeks.
Until I can stop dealing with all of you who just seem to brush me off. Thanks, hope you’re all happy ruining my only 4 years of high school. And I’ll have to fake my farewell speech. I could do a negative take on it but I wouldn’t want to ruin a mood.
I feel so Mad.
“maybe if I would have held you like this last night you would have fell asleep like you did during the movies” yeah I would have. Considering for the hour and a half between you falling asleep then me falling asleep, that’s the only thing I could think about. To me the whole point of sleeping over is to fall asleep in your arms.
I just want to feel loved and beautiful and wanted again.
Wow
It’s been SO long since I’ve been on tumblr! But really, like 2+ months
I’m trying really hard
Not to cry, because I’m hoping that if I brush it off and be “an example” sort of, then you’ll be nicer too. How long I can pretend to be strong? Who knows, time will tell I suppose.
I feel like I care too much,
Only because I feel like you don’t care at all. It’s heart breaking.
It’s not a bad thing to miss you,
What hurts is when I miss you and when I’m 99.9% sure you don’t miss me back.
I have a strong feeling,
A very strong gut feeling that my boyfriend is back. I’ve noticed very slight but very important changes today. He’s had realizations, and I couldn’t ask for more. I won’t get my hopes too high yet, but I have a feeling that the man who used to really love and appreciate me is back.
And I’ve never hoped for anything more than for this feeling to be right
Goodnight,
Crying myself to sleep because I’m alone yet again on vacation. I have time to spend with people finally, but nobody to spend it with. So happy new year to all the friends I don’t have.
Oh yeah, I don’t have plans for new years either.
My life is a fucking joke.
I’ve come to realize
That not only am I friendless,
But I’m probably not going to get accepted to a university.
I can’t afford anatomy college credit.
I’m not getting the Christmas gift I originally wanted to get my boyfriend so he can enjoy himself more.
And I’m going to spend this entire break alone.
Isn’t life just beautiful?
